So…. Who’s Sunny?

Well… It’s my new name.

Or will be legally when the courts open their services and I can ACTUALLY get the paperwork I need. OR the motivation to find it all.

Some of you may know I am now divorced!

No, honestly. A very good thing. Keep an eye out for a unwedding shoot. 😉

I have been in a lot of…turmoil over the last year. And it had nothing to do with the dreaded C word. It was coming for a long time and it’s finally FINALLY done.

Now I am left with… pieces. Fractures of the family I lost, a shattered façade that kept me protected, and a deathly new fear of commitment.

To anything and everything.

Going to school? Maybe a semester, I have a divorce hearing coming up…

Seeing new people? Yeah, tried that.. It’s awkward as hell…

Finding a job in a pandemic? Yeah.. no one is hiring! No one that pays a livable wage…

But, I did get a job. I do have a place to stay. I have resources and a fiercely loving family. I would be so drowned without them.

I needed a way to lay my old life to rest. I wanted a symbol. Something I have perceived as brave, and fierce and capable.

This is Sunstreaker.

My new name sake.

Yeah, yeah, I know it’s a giant toy, but come on

IT’S A GIANT TOY!!

I have the coolest hobby ever! And I am so excited to get back to it come January (IF THE C WORD DOESN’T COME BACK SEASONALLY PLEASE AND THANKS WEAR A @#%$# MASK)

But I needed something to make me smile when I heard it.

So I use his nickname

Sunny

I think it suits me pretty well.

I want to choose happiness over suffering. As much as 2020 has sucked HARD, it’s the year that freed me. It’s the year I finally listened to that fierceness inside and acted.

I broke free.

And I’m happy to be Sunny about it.